I wasn’t getting what I wanted because…

I wasn’t giving it to myself.

The problem wasn’t an energetic block in my ability to receive. It wasn’t anyone else’s problem. It was mine.

I wasn’t giving myself what I wanted and I was getting upset when that was reflected back to me from outside of myself. 

My understanding didn’t come easy, although looking back with hindsight clarity the problem now seems obvious.

I gained clarity only after a long sleepless night, battling with hormonally elevated anxiety that has resulted in a very unfortunate cold sore, much stream of consciousness journaling, a few vulnerable conversations, leaning in instead of backing away, yoga, meditation, and reaching out for guidance from my coach.

I’m writing about this today because hopefully I can help fast track your awareness if you are struggling with something like this in your own life. 

Also, because there seems to be a misconception that doing the deep work of yoga, meditation and self study will lead to no longer having hard days, moments, or situations. We will all still have hard moments but we will have better tools to use as we journey through them and we will no longer feel defined by our struggles or circumstances.

For a moment, consider these questions:

1. What are you wanting from other people in your life? Partners, parents, friends, co-workers, etc.

2. Are you giving (Your answer to #1) to yourself?

If you answer to #2 is no:

3. How can you start giving it to yourself?

Try not to answer #3 in a theoretical way. Take action.

I would love to hear how this is landing for you.

What are you going to start doing to give yourself what you are looking for? 

Leave a comment below the blog and let me know.

I’d love to get a great conversation happening here, perhaps it can start with you.

As always, thank you for reading. If you enjoyed this essay I’d be so grateful if you would share it with a friend. You can do so by clicking on the links on the left side of the page.

***Of course, sometimes we may find ourselves in situations where another person is being abusive, harmful, or in someway unkind to us or unhealthy in our lives. In those situations this line of internal questioning is not the best tool. I would advise you to seek the help of the proper professional to ensure your physical, mental, emotional, and legal well being.***

Thank you again.

Much love,
Katie